Got The Blame

No matter what i did i always got the blame from my family. Whether is right or wrong they will blame me. Sometimes the thing that i dont do ,also i got the blame. I just dont like to be in this situation. That is their pattern. They just like to make  a small matter worst and more complicated.

Highest So What

After recieving my chemistry test result on monday i realise that i have the highest mark among the two lecture class. But i am not quite happy with the result.After receiving a mark that is 37.5/45 i am disappointed. I start to thin that " what am i doing"? I shouldnt get the mark , i should get at least 40 or full mark . I am not statifies with the result.I feel bad because such a easy question i cannot get full mark.I cant expect myself to compete with other student because the thoughest competitor is my self not other. Every time i get the result that i am not expect to get, i am determine to push my self harder so that i can get what i set for.

E_ _ L Side

Do human have dark/evil side. I think is yes. And this feeling make me hate everything. And make me shouted to theperson that i dont want to shout.I feel bad after that.

I Feel Bad When I Become Evil & Paying = No changes

No matter what i did, good or bad, right or wrong i always got the blame. I am tired of being blame. I just hate to be aggresive and i am trying my best not to be aggresive. please dont test my patient, because when it start what i have say and i dont meant to do it, i will do.Is just like  there is a evil side of mine when i get so angry. Plese dont start it. It could be so terrifying. All of them think i am evil/monster..

Who to blame when healing does not works. Is the doctor. I know not all disease can be cure. But the sickness that i saw is a normal sickness but made worst by the person itself. I just hate that when we pay a lot to the doctor , they just give some advice and some medication. After stepping outside the hospital they dont even care the patient. They have no commitment in treating patient, they just thinking of being paid by the patient.This situation well potrey human real intention. Definately not all the doctor is the same, there is some good one but rare.  paying a sum of money to doctor = Nothing/No change

A Simple Question With Confusion On The Answer..

Whenever i meet her , the first question that she ask me is "How are you". If last time without hesitation i will  answer that "i am not good". Then as time go, i change the answer to " Life is the same". But now i really dont know how to answer her.What i can answer is that "I really cannot answer your question"or" I really dont know how to answer your question" . If i say "i an fine/ good" that is a lie and i dont want to lie to you. But if i say " i am not good" i am making you disappointed. Because every time after she ask "How are you" she will ask " DO you feel better". I know she expect a positive result. And i hope that one day without any problem and hesitation i will answer to her that ' I Am Really Good"..

Out

Sometimes i am wondering   that when a person go outing with their friends and spend their time, how they can do that. I am definately not that type of person that going out every day or week or sometimes. It need a lot of sacrifices when going out. The minor sacrifices is transport and the major problem is money. Where did get the money .Is it from your parent  or your salary? Because i want to save for my universities used i use more the time in house rather than spending money outside. Although i feel like going out but i cant..

Will I Miss Home When I Stay Outside The House..

Yesterday have a conversation with someone. She said that when you are living outside other than own house we we starting to miss home, because home is the best compare to living outside. I am kind of speechless that moment, because i am not fully agree. I agree that home i the place that people will miss when they live outside for quite a while. But who like to live in a house that is full of argument and hatered.Tell me..

Tired of Argue

I am tired argue with you. Feel like dont want to stay at this house.everyday argue with you seem like so argue with a non existence problem. Hope will finish my foundation soon and move to KL so that i will see your annoying face annymore.

Stay Focus

Already 6 weeks gone. Still 9 weeks to go. And i am going to stay focus for what i aim for. What i aim for is an A for the only subject and going through Degree next few month.